Defending Barriers. Enclosed Structure. Holding Pressure. Blocking a Place. Protection against the imposing one. Walls. Five letter word that has mulitple meanings from a noun to a verb.
I have walls. My walls are emotional to physical. I have many heights of walls in my life. My walls can be one inch tall to over one million feet tall. I guess my height of a wall depends on how I examine a person. Isn’t that judgement? Yes! I do judge to protect myself from others to things that I feel could influence me in a physical or emotional way.
I have walls with family, friends, coworkers, students, etc. Each person in my life I have a wall inbetween us. I use to allow people tear down my walls, and I would let them sit on every moment and feeling in my life. I would let their words and behaviors influecne me. I would feel good, bad, depressed, anxious, happy, overwhelmed, and the list goes on.
I built walls not to be insecure, but to be secure. I use to open up my novel of life to everyone around me. It never mattered if it was good or bad news in life. I would reach out to people to get advice, but I would never be happy with just one person’s input. I almost had to share it with over 15 people. Was I just never happy with what they had to say? Probably!
I found it really hard on not accpeting the truth. I did not like to admit to my own faults. I loved to point blame on others on how I did things. I did not own up to my faults. I kept lookin for the answer I wanted to hear. “It’s not your fault.”
After telling so many people a story that was personal, it no longer was personal. I shared with too many people my life stories. Gossip became a huge result between friends, family and even coworkers. The evirnoments I was around basically turned against me. I realized that not everyone is my friend. Yes, I menitoned it earlier I had different classes of people in my life, but I did not notice the difference in my past life.
I came across a scripture in the Bible about trusting people. In Micah 7:5-6, “Put no trust in a neighbor; have no confidence in a friend, guard the doors of your mouth from her who lies in your arms; for the son treats the father wiht contempt, the daugher rises up against her mother, the daughter in law against her mother in law; a man’s eneimes are the men of his own house.” Sound pretty harsh, right? It is crazy, but I realized after this scipture I became more careful of opening my mouth to others.
I built walls. I have walls built between my sibilings to my mom. I have walls built from one friend to another. I even have walls built between my love of my life. Does it sound sad? No! I realized the I have someone more important in my life to let down all my walls. His name is Jesus.
“It is better to take refuge in the Lord than to trust in man,” Psalm 118:8. It is easier to open up to Jesus than anyone. You might think it’s because he is not infront of me, or he can not speak back to me. Oh, but you are wrong! He holds my hand when I come to him. He picks me up when I am very weak. Jesus whispers in my ear to say what I need to hear. He embraces me when I cry to him. We laugh toghether when I thank him for a miracle. He gives me warmth and goose bumps when I praise him.
God is amazing. He helped me place walls with people I love because he can only help and protect me. There are times I want to put a wall up with him, but as it says in Ezekiel 8:7, ” Then he brought me to the entrance of the court, and when I looked, behold, a hole in the wall.” The story of Ezekiel 8 is about Idolatry in the Temple. God took Ezekiel to the temple in Jerusalem to an entrance of the inner gate of the temple. God showed him through the hole in the wall on how to get into the temple, because God wanted Ezekiel to see the evil happening inside the walls.
This chapter in Ezekiel is about opening up the eyes of Ezekiel to see what is happening behind the walls of the temple; although, I can also see it as a way for us to never build a wall up agasinst God. Bad deeds can happen to us when we have a barrier with him. Jesus is our Lord. We must place him first with no walls.
Let Jesus into your heart. Tell him everything and share all with him. He will give you the wisdom you need. Jesus will love you with all your heart’s desire. God will fill all voids. Look for the hole that God shows you in your wall. Open and dig into that hole in the wall. Tear the wall down to let in Christ.